This is a milestone blog. Click the heart and read with an intention to leave a comment at the end. It will make me feel good! 😁
You know those types of sayings – “people who are not in a relationship give great advice,” or “it is easier said than done,” one more, one more, one more when someone you once gave advice to comes back and says, “you should try taking your own advice.” – Listen to me and hear me when I say I have experienced all of the above and then some 😅.
I like to learn, and I like to listen. Then what I love most is sharing what I have learned if it comes up in whatever I’m listening to. Spreading love, light and knowledge is something I would tattoo on my body, because that is how much I believe in it – permanently so.
Here is the problem …
As much as I would love to spread my love, my light and my knowledge to as many people as possible, I AM TERRIFIED! So, only those that are close to me are aware of what I am passionate about because, the lesser the crowd the more comfortable I am.
Many of you have seen me on camera, but have you noticed that I do not speak at all or at least I don’t speak in my own voice. Maybe some of you have seen me on a stage or in a presentation, but did you notice that I could do that without having any cameras around. For some reason, I have not really been able to merge the two unless there was some crucial factor associated with the reason for doing that and after at least a 1000 retakes 😂🙈.
So how my opening statement comes into play, I enjoy helping people where I can; giving advice, and motivation and saying “you go girl, you shine on that YouTube channel!” Or “You can do anything you set your mind and heart to” (I think just about everyone has heard this one from me.” Thing is I do believe in mind power and putting it out in the universe, it is easy for me to say it to you … Meanwhile, someone says to me, “G, start a YouTube channel, I think you would be great!” That’s when my bags (yes plural) of excuses and insecurities come out, “I can’t do that. I don’t like speaking on camera. I love writing, I even have a blog.” To myself, “Nobody likes me like that. You don’t look good enough. You barely get a 100 likes on IG even with over a thousand followers. I’m not even completely sure who fully reads this blog!😱” – although I still don’t want to start a YouTube channel, I so desperately want to engage with the whole world if I could. To share my thoughts, my love, my light, and make people laugh if I can! I yearn for meeting people, it is my favourite thing about travel (in country and out of). But damn, y’all don’t understand how much y’all scare me when there is many of you with video evidence👀😬.
I really am not trying to trick anyone. I know that self-assurance is powerful, and sometimes the internal needs an extra boost from an external party. That’s why I am super proud of all my friends if I ever helped with that extra boost, because you do deserve it and wow, I’m honored to be in the presence of people who can shut down the negative inner voice.
This blog was a huge step for me, because I knew I needed to be vulnerable enough to write and then press publish. I really enjoy doing this so much, but now it is turning into a comfort zone (no growth zone = not good). I guess I need to up my game! I have goals for this blog to eventually turn it into something, but that is going to take some time, I’m not there yet, you’ll know when I am 😉😋 stay tuned!
Until then, let’s begin an IGTV series 🤩 (nervous AF, but yaaay!!). If I’m going to tell you to face your fears and try something new, it is my turn to “take my own advice!” By announcing it, I hold myself accountable. It’s not like I never try new things, just that I make sure it is up to the point I’m still comfortable, always running away from judgement, there could be many psychological reasons for this, but now it is time to break through at this big age!
Here is how it will work: whenever I post a blog, the Saturday of the same week, I will go live to make it a verbal conversation for 20 to 30min (I will note it every time).
Starting with this one: 1 August 2020, join me on Instagram at 4PM. Have questions, comments, love and light and insight. You can leave them all on the comments here and I will respond or bring them along to make it impromptu (Fun!😁).
Let’s be #Royalty