This is my 18th post. It makes sense because 18 is the legal age in some countries (others it is 21, in case you were wondering); so let this be the legal post 😉. Okay no, not like that, it is very clean.
I want to reflect on my “coming of age.” If I may call it that. Basically, how I got to where I am. A young adult, who is still lost in life, but I continue to keep searching for hope, peace and love. Why these three things specifically? Well, simply because, why not? I think those things are cool. We are always hoping for better in everything. We should not be at war, so obviously we should be at peace. Lastly, aren’t we all looking for some type of love (family, friendship, romantic etc.). Cool, right?
Anyways, let me move on.
Someone said: “Adolescence is a period of rapid changes”
They were more than 100% correct. I do not disagree whatsoever, because then I do not have a case as to why they are completely incorrect. So, as they say, “If you cannot beat them, join them!”
Okay, I will begin with the normal stuff. We all went through puberty, that awkward period when your body changes from the inside out and at first it seems freaky and scary; you just want it to stop! I definitely know that I did. I would be lying if I never said at some point it sucks to be a girl (if you know what I mean). I had to get through it and literally it is what it is. I think I am a lady/woman now, at least getting there.
Then there is the thing with emotions. Rollercoaster, ups and downs; then in love and in hate. All of a sudden it is in happiness and then saddness. You get the drill. This is when my interests started to change. I wanted to try new things. And I absolutely hated it when somebody told me that I can’t do it (whatever it is). Honestly speaking I am still like this. I believe that I can do whatever I set my mind and heart to; skrew what anyone else says (yes, I am aware that screw has a ‘c,’ ‘k’ just sounds deeper.). Fortunately for me, I was never a rebel kid in its actually definition, I was a rebel towards the societal norms of what was happening around me at that point in time. What it means is that I thought about everything, including the whys and why nots before I got into anything. I could never follow a crowd if I had completely no interest in anything that everyone else was doing. Yeah, proudly weird, that is me!
My teen years have always been funny. I do not think that I have ever, EVER gone a single day without laughing/giggling/smiling😁. I can tell you why.
A day without smiling or laughing, is a day wasted – unknown
From the day I first heard/read that quote, it changed my life. Not to say that I never had sad days or days filled with tears. Trust me when I say I had many of those to a point where you could diagnose me as being depressed and with anxiety. I can just say with complete certainty that I never wasted any day up to date, I just have an ability to find humour somewhere, somehow because there is so much out there to laugh at. I might be diagnosed psycho as well (as I laugh at myself)😂🤣. Then again there was a different quote that I learnt in high school drama, that the people who are always laughing and making jokes are also most likey to be the saddest people on the inside. Maybe watch out for that for people you may know.
Turns out that adolescent years are actually not easy. They can be fun, no doubt, but they are not easy at all. School gets tougher. Gossip gets louder. Friends become less. And Responsibilities become greater (depending on what type of person you are). I was the type of person who just wanted to achieve, because I had goals that I wanted to reach. I was determined and like I said before I just could not follow the crowd and then turn my dreams down. I just trusted that there was a greater plan for me and that the realest people would stick by me no matter what. Turns out I was more or less correct and I am just happy with how so many things turned out. I mean, yeah, there are many that I have lost in my life but that was just meant to be; you cannot keep everyone. Many people believe that so many things were just handed to me, as though I did nothing to earn anything, that is not true and it will never be true. I do not need to explain myself, you just need to get to know me. Know that I work for everything, with my results, by showing kindness to people, by setting goals and making plans, having good mentors for guidance. It is a lot of effort that I put myself through, but it has always proved worth it. That is how I am where I am.
I guess it is then also only deemed fit to then talk about my love life. This is the complicated thing in teen years. Do we even know what a “love life” is? I read somewhere that in life you truly fall in love 3 times in total. Even when you are young in your early teenage years. It is true love because that is what you knew love to be at that point in your life. I think my first time is done, it was real. It is done now and damn, there was more drama after than there was during. Maybe it did scar me, I do not know, because I was never the same, in this aspect, again. But, maybe it also made me better, because after the healing, I came back brand new. I am done with the nonesense and people just need to know. I could tell you what I want now, but that is a story for a different post.
Now I am finally 20 years old, no longer a teenager. I was so excited for this. I still am excited because I do not know what life has in store for me. I am also so scared that I am going to fuck up (I have no better words). Being a teenager was waking up every morning and never knowing what to expect. Of course, routines stay the same, but there is always something new that is trending.
I have laid down my entire life as a growing teenager up to where I am no longer one, this year. It was not easy but maybe someone out there needed to know. Take something out of my story that is beneficial to you.
Then let’s be #Royalty👑